Lately life has been life...things are going very good..I haven't cried in about 2 months about the obvious so I think its time to take a chance.
I put together a day of community and love for this weekend..A couple of friends and I are going to go around thrift shops buying backpacks, clothes, sweaters, ect. and then going to get canned foods at H.E.B and we're going to drive around passing them out to the homeless or anyone who needs something warm and something of love. After that I've been planning to do a Potluck at the park the day before Thanksgiving for the homeless or anyone who doesn't have a place to go for the holiday or just plain want to be together. I want to say I have closure but I don't think it is really appropriate but I have "closure" on what is going on..I know my calling is putting my money in good things..I feel very strongly that it has to do with the fact when I did have money I bought drugs, alcohol and materialistic things I didn't need but wanted...God has blessed me with an amazing job and given me a second chance to make the right choice this time.
On another note, I suppose I can write about it because questions have been going around.
I've been talking to Taylor almost everyday for about 2 and a half weeks...I haven't really told anyone just because..1. He lives in Mississippi(moving down though for awhile in Nov.) 2.I haven't seen him since I was 15. 3. It's nothing official. But so far..The conversations we have are the most intelligent I've had with someone in a long time, he makes me feel pretty..everytime we talk I get a compliment on something, he makes amazing music and sings so beautiful so we're going to make music together which is a blessing and he makes me laugh..he also got out of a 3 year relationship around the same time Rich and I broke up as well..The only thing I can't seem to look past is the fact that I didn't want anyone that wasn't Richard. But I feel like I have another chance to do this right....All Mates of State style. Awww
Trying to be still and know.

Not very good at it though.

So I've been updating my Lj slash Myspace but now I let my out of state friends know whats up..First of all I'm sorry if I've had my attention on other things and not letting people that love me know I'm okay and safe.
I got a job...Thank God..I work at Valley Land and Title co. I open contract for Realtors and I do the runs for the company..basically their personal assistant..I have a company car and cell phone it's neat...I feel a little like the girl from the Devil Wears Prada just because I'm always up and around doing things for my boss but It makes me feel good and responsible.
My mom got her old job offered back but she's still debating on it...she wants to work with kids.
I met a lot of cool people this weekend and Dignan is back home so I've been seeing those toots lately. Umm what else?.....I don't know...things are just getting better and I'm content...I talked to a friend from Mississippi and he's coming down like next month for a month..I'm really excited!
And and and I met someone from California who loves God soooo much it's crazy! and he is also thinking about hitchhiking down here..I offered to help pay for a bus ticket..I want to take him to Mexico and to the orphanage over there...I think I can learn a lot from him and a big big negatory = do not introduce him to my friends.
He's such a beautiful person and I want to keep him away from any kind of temptation.
Life is redundant.
I have to wake up at 6 in the morning mon-fri
"The Lord has made this day, let us rejoice in it"
That is something I should learn to say instead of pressing snooze on my alarm. :[


My best friend who I will always love no matter what.


No matter what.